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Ezaura

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Rightio, so this journal won't be as silly or contain humour as some of my previous ones, but bear with me here. The internet is probably not the best place to say something as personal as this but I just feel like I have to. I'M EXPRESSING MYSELF TO THE WORLD WHICH IS A VERY RARE OCCURANCE. YOU BETTER ENJOY IT YOU PRIVILEGED CHILDREN.

Okay so I just officially graduated from high school this morning, and it only just hit me when I finally came home after the event. Even on my last day of classes I said goodbye to everyone but it just didn't seem like…goodbye. I wasn't even crying when we said our goodbyes, I felt normal, not broken or sad. But it seems I've convinced myself that high school would last forever and I'm obviously wrong.

So when I came home today, I just lied in my bed for hours, wondering "what the hell do I do now?"

Well, what's done is done, I'm now in the out and free world but I have no clue where to start.
I'll certainly miss high school. I mean, yeah, my beginning years were crap but I finally adapted to it and before long I was actually enjoying it. I got along well with the teachers, I joined a good group of friends that accepted me, and no one has bullied me for a few years now. Ha, I even liked how people referred to me as the 'dragon girl lesbian that is both awkward and a clown'. The only thing I won't miss is all the bloody assignments.

Just I wish I had enjoyed my year a little more, especially the formal (or prom as others would call it). It was a great night and I actually danced, but I couldn't help but feel a little…empty. I was only just starting to realize the truth that school is almost over then and there. And unfortunately I couldn't pluck up the courage to ask out the girl that I like either, which sucks because I promised myself that I would tell her how I feel on the night of the formal but unfortunately I never got the chance to.

Anyway.

At least I got to say goodbye to some of my friends and teachers properly today, even though it was rather sad. The last few years have been fun, and I'm glad I have something to look back upon.
But now seems like the time to document my memories, sort myself out, and go out and rediscover my life. If I can find it anytime soon, that is.

-End Rant-
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Okay, the title has absolutely nothing to do with the content of this journal.
But just to clarify, I unfortunately don't have a great moustache, seeing as I am a GIRL.

Anyway okay well I haven't updated this journal in like 6 MONTHS so I thought it was about time to finally feed Mr. Journal again.

So what have I done over the last few months…existed?

I kidd, I kidd, why would I even be thinking about existing? Pfft, cmon! That's too mainstream.
Okay I'm going off track here as I usually do.
Anyway it's only 2 months now that I'll be graduating high school so I'LL BE A FREE WOMAN.
And that kind of scares me.
But aside that, school and actually socializing with HUMANS has taken up my time and that's rather unusual for me because I'm typically a lazy Snorlax that lives in a batcave, eating nothing but toasted sandwiches and browses the internet for literally 12 hours a day.
Not that any of you care about that anyway, I feel like I'm talking to myself here because I am.
Seriously, if I was actually popular on this site, I'd probably be evil with my power and post up links of all the people I hate and be like "ATTACK! FLY MY PRETTIES!"
I'm sorry, I just love the thought of having minions to command.

Anyway, again, going off track here. To the point!

Yes, I will be graduating soon.
Yes, it is terrifying.
Yes, I don't know what I'm doing with my life.
Yes, I will soon crawl back to the internet due to lack of social activity.
Yes, I'm only saying this because I have nothing else to write in this journal.
Yes, you don't care.
Yes, I have more artwork I will be posting up soon.
Yes, of course you still don't care.
No, you cannot have any cookies from my cookie jar unless you ask politely.

So yeah, even though I have been somewhat busy, life has been good. Now I had better go prepare since I start my last term of school tomorrow!
But don't worry, I will still return to the internet occasionally to procrastinate SO IT'S ALL GOOD.

Farewell chaps, and I will return soon enough!
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Why hello Mr. Journal, how are you today? Haven't seen you in a while, I've been pretty busy with school work lately so I haven't had the chance to chat, but I thought we might as well catch up today :D
"….It's official, you're going insane"
Shh! No talky talky!

Anywho, yes I'm aware it's been a while since my last journal update, these things take too much time and effort that could be used on something irrelevant like eating a whole loaf of bread at once or counting all the leaves on all the trees within a hundred metres but that's besides the point. My last year of school has been taking quiet a toll on me so I've been busy with schoolwork and my LIFE. *GASP* OMG I GOT A LIFE, HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE? BUT I APOLOGIZE TO MY FELLOW INTERNET FRIENDS FOR BETRAYING YOU!
"ahh no one cares anyway"
…..:shakefist:
Anyway I'm getting sidetracked here. To the point! I will indeed be rather busy for the next year so don't expect too much from me, but I will make sure to regularly submit some of my random artwork each week so LOOK FORWARD TO THAT :dummy: I'M NOT TAKING DOWN MY PAGE OF COURSE, I'M JUST NOT GOING TO BE ONLINE AS MUCH AS I WOULD LIKE TO THAT'S ALL. :|
So yes, this year I have already done a shit load of artwork and much more is to come. But regardless of how my apparent busyness is going to take up all my time, I'm still open for suggestions and commissions. Just mail me or…whatever.
I have also been planning to post up some of the stories and backgrounds for each of my characters and the world that they live in which I titled "Darkmare", but it may take me a while to write it all up in since everything's in sketches at the moment. I'm an artist, not a writer people! But I will get around to it eventually, they'll just be in the description of each character's picture anyway.

Right, well this is the part where I rant about my life but I'm going to skip that for once since no one really cares and this journal is too bloody long anyway and I don't think Mr. Journal can handle another thousand words. It's all just basic boring human stuff anyway like doing schoolwork, hanging out with friends, seeing family and sorting out relationship complications and blah blah blah. ALL BORING MUGGLE THINGS. :shrug:

Okay, I think that's about everything covered for now.
HOPE YOU ENJOYED MY USELESS BABBLING, CHEERIO GOOD CHAPS! :iconisaydanceplz:
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Heyo, it's me again with another new shiney and fresh journal entry!
But I'm warning you, if you read ahead then you'll suddenly be attracted to cactus plants (including Cactuars :iconcactuarplz:) and start thinking that pie is made from peaches and skinned frogs. It's your choice.

Anyway as for Art, I have been drawing a bit in class at school (I'M SUCH A REBEL), done some sculptures based off Final Fantasy summons (Bahamut, Odin and Cactuar) which I will eventually post, another better Flight lineart that was scanned and edited/painted in Paint Tool SAI + a bit of GIMP and I also did 3 other commissions which are:
-Yuna, Lulu and Valefor on a canvas with watercolor and pencils :D
-A transformer that can transform into a Peoguet 407 Silhouette on a larger canvas with watercolor and pencil
-A portrait of the client's wife on paper with watercolor and pencil
So I'll post them eventually, after I edited them in Gimp since I had to use a camera instead of a scanner to capture them. Not sure about the portrait though, I would need permission from the client and I don't think saying "OMG CAN I PRETTY PLEASE POST THE PORTRAIT OF YOUR WIFE ONLINE FOR EVERYBODY TO SEE!?!?" would do to the job.

Rightio, NOW TIME FOR MY RANTING ABOUT MY LIFE :iconflowerdanceplz:
Well I finished and passed the last term of Grade 11 which went hell quick. We only had 7 weeks and a couple weeks after that for exams and finishing projects. In that time I found out my new sibling is going to be a girl (HOORAY FOR SUGAR AND RAINBOWS AND SCREAMING LITTLE CHILDREN), helped a friend with her media/video assignment, snuck into the school to get my art projects and dart board cabinet since the school took them off me and I decided to steal them back. NO ONE FUCKS WITH ME BITCHES. :iconsaiyanplz:

Anywho now I'm on holidays until the end of January, then I have to survive the last level and defeat the big boss known as Grade 12. As usual my Holidays arent very productive, watching movies, playing games, seeing family and friends, staying up all night LITERALLY :iconnocturnalplz:, getting woken up because my brother locked my parents out and Dad happily had to break a few windows to get back inside O_O (I miss all the good stuff :shakefist:). Other than that, basically slowly sorting out stuff and preparing for Grade 12 and looking into see whats available career wise (even though the school has been pretty much SPAMMING us with career choices) and probably going to Bundaberg to see family for a couple weeks.

anddddddd END RANT.
I'll post another journal entry next year sometime when I have a life and have some new art.
In the mean time, HAPPY HOLIDAYS, MERRY CHIRSTMAS, AND DONT GET TOO DRUNK OR SCREW A CUCUMBER FOR NEW YEARS! :dummy:
Cherrio good chaps :iconsaluteplz:.
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Okay well i havent updated my journal in like...MONTHS so i thought it is appropriate to do so now :dummy:

Well then, first things first, ART. I have re-scanned and updated some of my previous pictures that were terrible and blurry so at least thats out of the way. I have also done quite a few drawings over the last couple months which include a vintage dragon with a top hat, classical Hazer, landscape, a grim reaper with a dragon wrapped around him, and last but not least, FLight with their Eidolons (Odin and Bahamut) in the background, which was a BITCH of a thing to draw :shakefist:, yet it still needs a bit more goddamn editing. And no im not posting any...pervy Flight artwork, well not yet anyway, and if i do DO NOT EXPECT IT TO BE PORN you perverted little ones.
Oh and for art at school i made a clay sculpture of a summon-bahamut-robot-moth THING, plus i have also done a commission (my first commission! :iconisaydanceplz:) which was some fantasy landscape :D.
So i have the images and photos of the above and they shall be posted at random over the next few weeks SO LOOK FORWARD TO IT
"No one even reads these things you kno-"
SHUT UP CONSCIENCE, I'M AWARE OF THAT :evileyes:

Now moving onto the stuff about my life, (i advise you dont read my ranting, as it can result in the reader losing half their brain cells and suddenly having the craving for pickle and cheese toasted sandwiches)
Anyway well I survived the day known as my birthday, and luckily got a PS3 as a reward :iconexcitedplz: so i got to play FFXIII and Oblivion, even though shamefully i have been playing Oblivion more (Its got good gameplay and its addictive, except for when im being chased by 17 giant fucking spiders or when i recruit someone onto the team and they die within 8 seconds.). I also got a new computer later on for some unknown reason, but i somehow fucked it up badly so it had to get replaced. Joy. I also found out that my mother is pregnant again so IM GOING TO HAVE ANOTHER DEMONIC IMP SIBLING :chainsaw: SOMEONE! ANYONE! PLEASE DECAPITATE ME QUICKLY AND PAINFULLY
Aside from that i just finished Term 3 of school, went on holidays for two weeks (even though i was sick most of the time and lazier than a sloth :la:) so i didnt do anything productive, and now im back at school. Technically i only have about 5 weeks left of term and then back on holidays for 8-10 weeks?
Seriously i dont know what the hell to do with all that time, my parents want to send me to some kind of boot camp, but i have my doubts on that one. But basically once this term is done i only have one more year of school O_O :iconfuckyeahplz:. So the next few weeks will be pretty busy.
Anyway thats about it for now, i dont usually keep track of my life, but lucky for you since you dont have to read anymore of my freakin ranting :iconblankjediplz:

Well this is probably the longest journal i have ever made, I'll make sure to keep my journals shorter and more frequent after this otherwise i forget everything, and I'll submit those new artworks soon.
Anyway off to bed, i have to venture out for hundreds of miles and face the irritating monsters known as my relatives for the weekend. 'Night.
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